Coming up only to hold you under,

Fuck all that. I'm fed up with this feeling of bullshit. NO MORE negativity. Take me away. Get me out of here. Free me from this state of mind in which I'm forever trapped in. I don't need anymore. Get the fuck out.


This feeling.. That seems as if I fail. Failfailfail. Is that what Oliver was put on this earth to do ? To be seen as a failure ? To be called a failure ? To simply put, fail ? Wtf is this ? What kind of person have I become ? I now question my own persona, andd through all this tracing to the direct source.. I've found yet nothing. Could if be emotion ? The air that I breath ? The things I see.. Anything I'm exposedd to.. Does that alter my state of mind that once kept me solid and successful ? Is this useless contemplating and ranting not aiding in a change of path ?




"Yes, there are two paths you can go by
But in the long run
Theres still time to change the road you're on."
-Led Zeppelin




Why Is this only now that I've come to feel this way ? Have I simply, not cared about it ? i-d-g-a-f ? Where the hell is that gettting me ?



"We were all born hungry in this world alone"
-Tupac Shakur

No good deed goes unpunished. For every action taken, there's a consequence. I'm aware of all this.. Yet my mind remains fixed facing a negative direction. I alone can change this. Any one of us can. This blog may simply be pointless. Fact, everything in this world or life as we know it can be pointless. But what can you do but pick up what everything and everyone drops just for you. To examine andd learn. To not make the same mistake twice.

There's always time.

There will be no end. End is only as we know it. How we see it, what we want it.




Press on