Intergalactic Sabotage,

Things have been pretty good I can solidly say. With school along alright, I just need to keep focused and not fall into my procrastinative slump which I'm slowly dipping into, but not too deep to crawl out and be productive.


I guess everyone is right. I think I just need to schedule things. . To reorganize my priorities. I guess I'll try that out and see what happens. I've been skating pretty okay lately, not my best I'd say. Or maybe I'm just never happy with myself? Speaking of happy with myself, I've been feeling utterly disgusting when I have free time, and nobody to skate with. I'm actually trying to work out again. I have a daily play set up for every night before bed now.. This should go by quickly because I'm not that far off? Well, compared to how I used to be. Idk, I guess working out and gaining positive results is just something I like progressing in to make me feel accomplished? Like skating. . Yeahh. Well, the lead singer from Kiss once said that men only want 3 things: Love, sex, success. I guess he's right thinking about it. Idk. . I mean. I just wanna be successful. Not to bite of Drake or whatever. Haha. Ahh, I haven't blogged like this in a while. Well, I'mma get back to doing laundry, then hit the sheets.


ERICA HUNG UP ON ME! :(

She probably rolled over the red button cas she's asleep with her clumsy self. Haha.


I love you Honey. :)

I'm leaving on a jet plane, and I don't know when I'll be back again,

Well, like I'm in Florida right now. And things are progressing for me, being able to handle being away from Erica and Skating and a whole bunch of stuff I miss already too.


But I know for a fact that I will always try in this relationship Honey. Despite how much it might stress me out, and how far I go to be vulnerable for you.


I just hope that you never take me for granted and destroy our promises and seek another..

Word is bond I go on and on for you its tragic I got magic like wands,

I type this blog with much anticipation of the next chapter in my life unfolds.


I'm leaving for DisneyWorld tomorrow morning around 8, but waking up at 3. . And I'm not gonna see Erica, or go skating for 9 whole days. . It's gonna be hard, but I'll make it up to my Honey. :)



8 months, forever to go btw!


And see my myspace for info on this whole situation. . I'm outtty.

Cas their ain't so such thing as half-way crooks,

Alright so yo,


(Little Donovan moment, I had to. . Haha)


ButteryAssMondays ---> www.theberrics.com


So basically, things have been so great. . Progressing in many ways. I'm growing a lot of confidence and it's doing me great. . School is nearing, and my Disneyworld vacation is nearing in even closer. You'll find me in SFO for 6 hours this Thursday and in the plane for another 6 hours! Haha, I'll probably be on that Myspace / aim there tho. On my laptop at the airport, haha.



Everything is doing great for the most part, lets keep this going!

Driving down the autobahn epsilon stupid niggas fightin' in the octagon,

I don't even know anymore.

I love, I care, I try, I put effort into a lot of things. .



But I'm never good enough. And I never will be. Go ahead and disrespect me all you want for anything, it wouldn't matter to me. I don't know what I deserve. I don't know how it feels to be adequate. I don't know how it feels to be 100% happy with my own life.

Better off without me, much. That goes to everyone. .

So a day when you've lost yourself completely,

Try, try, try. All I can ever do is try. . I try hard. . I try really hard, so hard it takes a massive toll on me. .


I feel like I fail at everything. . No. . Not necessarily fail, because in all realness my adequateness does not fall that deep at the bottom. .

It's as if at my very best, with all effort mustered, I will always be second best. .

I guess that's just simply a sign of progression. . Because everything and everyone has opportunities for any act of progression. .


I feel happy with love. . I really do. . But I try so hard, and give it my best, and it still always seems to be that I don't make her feel that way. . This happiness that I can feel, I don't know if she's ever felt it or not. . That's just, simply how I feel. . That I can try and try, and in the end you still seem to be unhappy with it all. . When things seem to be going great from my eyes, you seem to see the opposite. . And that just hurts me, really it does. . And as I've promised before, I know deep down I'll always find a way to work things out, and I'll always want to do that because I love you. .


But I guess it's just that simply put, love hurts.




With progression, comes perfection. Patience, determination, tolerance, honesty, and love is what we need. . We can do this.

In my bed, fell asleep, had a dream, about the washing machine,

I can only learn from my mistakes. . I can only listen with my ears. . And I can only love with my heart.


She proves to me that I make mistakes, and I'm truly human. . She makes me feel as if I have worth, but helps me see that I'm not perfect too. . I love her so much. . And I never want to lose her.


Only I can make change for the better, and by learning from this is just that. .