The consequences that I've rendered, I've stretched myself beyond my means,

This is fucking bullshit.. To vaguely express myself. I hate school, and everything about it. I'm sick of getting shit just trying to make it there. Skateboarding is fulll of bullshit people who need to just go fuck themselves. I hate all of the fucking shit there is in my life. I keep a high chin, looking forward to the ONE thing that I know makes me happy no matter what.. And I get shut down tonight. I made it pretty obvious I wanted to talk to her about how I've been feeling.. But then I just get this negative attitute, and I get hung up on. That's just a big fuck you right in the face right? Ahh.. I have nobody and nothing in my life at this moment that can rid me of this shittyness. I just feel so dissappointed.


"I thought you didn't wanna be with me anymore?.."

Ironic as fuck right? You wake 'scared' from a dream about something that'll never ever happen, and then today I feel shitty. You wouldn't get it. Nobody fucking would.

I don't give a flying fuck if anybody reads this and they don't know what's going on. You can go fuck yourself. I'm too pissed off about everything right now.. I just need a break from life. Seriously. I've put more on the line than I can handle. Fuck all of this shit, no more of this negative bullshittings. I'm just trying to be happy, but that shit can't ever fucking go my way.

Stolen, but credited (Not from a song)

From Junelle Narag

10 things I wish I could say to 10 different people right now.
1 - I love you Honey, forever and ever. :)
2 - YOU'RE A FUCKING BITCH GO FALL OFF A CLIFF!
3 - Topshelf?
4 - No, I don't have 10. -____-"
5 - I love you guys.
6 - I can't believe it still.. Some ALALALA guy?!
7 - Yeahh, you're annoying.
8 - Can you not be a pushover and take your title as man of the house goddammit?
9 - GOING, GOING, OUTTTA THEREEE!
10 - I miss living with you.. I miss you reading me stories, teaching me lots of things, helping me learn in school, the food you used to cook for me, appreciating how you always went out of your way to make me happy, always ALWAYS being there for me, I miss being your little Olliebear. :'(

9 things people may not know about me
1 - I'm taken, forever. If you didn't know, now you do. :)
2 - I put the (o) in Bro-D
3 - I need a new place to stay.
4 - First impressions LEAVE A MARK on me.
5 - I'll show respect when you deserve it.
6 - I have homicidal thoughts when tensions raise.
7 - Horror movies are comedy to me.
8 - I'm a distinguished member of the international society of poetry.
9 - I pray every single night.

8 ways to win my heart
1 - Erica Riane Medina,
2 - Erica Riane Medina,
3 - Erica Riane Medina,
4 - Erica Riane Medina,
5 - Erica Riane Medina,
6 - Erica Riane Medina,
7 - Erica Riane Medina,
8 - Erica Riane Medina!


7 things that cross my mind a lot
1 - Erica Riane Medina,.
2 - Being a kid again.
3 - Skateboarding.
4 - Food!
5 - Humorousness.
6 - Future trippin'.
7 - Am I dreaming?


6 things I do before you fall asleep (not in order)
1 - Phone with Honey.
2 - Listen to music.
3 - Let my mind race, laying there. Sometimes crash tho.
4 - Eat something.
5 - Set alarm.
6 - Complain about noise.

5 things I notice in the opposite sex
1 - They shouldn't be messed with.
2 - A select few deserve respect.
3 - Erica Riane Medina is beautiful, indeed. ;)
4 - Yeahh, her^ legs are my thing.
5 - There's not good looking skateboarding females.

4 things I wish I never did
1 - Get involved with distorted people.
2 - Be cocky. (Past)
3 - STRESS
4 - And interact with the Step-Monster in any way.

3 songs to describe my life
1 - Soundtrack 2 my life - Kid Cudi
2 - Someday - The Strokes
3 - Float On - Modest Mouse

2 things I want to do before I die
1 - Feel atonement.
2 - Learn all of lifes teachings.


1 Confession…
1 - I've worn panties before. Lmao.

Eviscerate your fragile frame,

It's seemingly unevitable. I can't avoid it..

All I want is to be there, and to show my love to you. But you really just disregard it and shove me off, building up your feelings. I know you have something to say.. I can feel it. I know there's something really wrong.. It's evident. But you choose to ignore my feelings that I'll always be there because I love you, and that I'm only trying to make you feel better by talking it out with you so that it'll get off your mind. So then I ask if you're even listening to me, because you're sooo tight lipped, and then I ask if you even want to talk to me? Then you give me, "it doesn't matter"


My efforts pretty much don't matter then. What did I do? The right thing. What do I get in return? Aghh.. I just hope this all clears up.