It hurts me, it hurts you, it hurts me, what you do, it's so goood.

Random blog titles. Words from songs I'm listening to atm. Just wakin' up in the morning gotta thank god, idk but last night seemed kinda odd. No barkin' from the dog, no smog. And Momma cooked a breakfast with no hog. Music tastes good to my ears. Woke up this morning tho, LOVE that relaxed feeling. Like, right when you're waking up. You feel so comfortable.. Feeels goood. =) Ahhh.. I'm so damn lazy. Woke up just on the comp for days. Text the girlfriend some. Decided to go skate to peoples houses and see what their up to. Played Kingdom Hearts with Robby like wtf ? Intense, hahaha. Then Matt called us over. Kicked it at his casa, played ea skate. That game is always fun.. ALWAYS. Addicting like whaaat too. Watched his 3rd and Army footage, crackin' up tho. Me and Robby cut. He wanted to go back home, I wanted to skate. Called up Zach, sesh in Greeen Valley Middle. As soon as I get in there pretty much, I try Switch 180 down it. It took me TOO many tries to do it.. Well, I didn't even do it. Haha. I mean.. I clipped the last stair and rolled away. But it's weird throwing switch down stuff. Because the timing is different than going normal. Like, timing height and stuff like that. If I go too fast I land in a crack or slip out from impact. If I go too slow I hit a crack or clip the last stair. Sketchy stair set I'm telling you.. Ahhh, I ate too much shxt. Was getting hot, so I cut. Zach got my lands on footy tho, even tho I slipped and such. He should use it for a promo.. Lol. Well, went home.. And straight up chillashed. (Chill/Crashed) Drank 34329847 gallons of water, ate 9847239 pounds of food. Texted the girlfriend some more. Chillchill. Typed this. kdonebyei'mtiredandsleepdeprived.

On a scale of one to ten ? That was not TOOO badd.

Ahhh, wake up in the morning and hop on the computer to see if anybody hit me up. Right when I get on aim, Matt asks for me to skate with him today. A little Frisco sesh with him, Kevin and Alexis. Showered, headed over. Chilled for a bit then headed to Safeway first, to use the coinstar machine. Stupid Matt and his random Chuck E. Cheese coins that boosted him up a couple dollars somehow.. HAHA. Picked up a deck for Kevin at the mall real quick. Matt got a set of Ventures and 100's. I hooked everything up in the car along the way, gave me something to do. Haha. Took a while ! Cuttin' up all over the place. Dropped some dub gas fade and we were on our way. Car ride was chill, slappin' music. Matt's hella funny.. Yelling at people on the freeway and they look at us hella scared. xD "IS THAT LAKAI TEAM?!" "Ohh, there goes Chocolate team fasho." "REYNOLDS?!" LMFAO. It's gold.. I'm hella laughing just typing this.. And then we slapped tracks loud and yelled out the car. "Go dumb at the sideshow, whaaaat ? What are you smokin' ?" Ladies rolled up and waved to us out of nowhere, haha. Matt was like. BAAABY?! HAHAHA. Arrived in the city. THINKING that we know which way to go, what turns to make, where 3rd is. I gave whatever info I had about it ? Kinda helped I guess, notsomuch tho. We looked for 3rd and Army for like.. And hour, and went in a complete circle about 3 times. "Even tho we're lost, this is still pretty fun." HAHA! And then we asked a gas station ? "Idk where that is, but you could buy a map for 3$." BIG help, right ? And apparently taxi drivers don't know what they're talking about either.. We FINALLY found third. It was under our noses the whole time. -______-" Seshed 3rd and Army a bit. Ledges are choppy as fxck ! Matt was right.. No matter how fast you go, you can't pop off them right. And the manual pads were higher than I thought. Kept getting robbed on nosemanuals.. We saw some guy that was Am on Real that has kf back tails like buttttah. Skilled crowd there tho. Got even more crowded so we bounced on home pretty much. And on the way back. Matt was like YEAAAAAH! And held it for like 2 blocks. LMFAO! It's so fxcking funny I swear.. I couldn't breath.. Ohh god, I'm hella laughing just thinking about it. "Hey guys, since Matt's finally 18 we should go to an adult shop. Oliver, you're staying in the car tho nigga." HAHA, like I'd wanna go in there and see the nasty ass people inside ? ( O)_______(O )


Matt kept pissing off Kevin.. LOL, throwing stuff at him while he's driving."You're gonna wish you didn't turn 18, I'm dead serious." Goood times.. Got back, chilled at Matts a bit. Cut home from Alexis. And then typed this laughing hard.. It was a great day, one that I needed. Skating with some niggas somewhere and just having lots of fun with it. A great day indeed sirrr.



OUT.

Gatorboooots, pimped out gucci suuuit.

Bonjour mon aimes. Ahhh, aujourd hui.. Today was.. Indescribable to say the least.. Everything is good tho ! Slowly climbing on the academic ladder, slowly, lazily. But gettting there. Skating is fun, but I gotta push it more for the Ground zero comp.. First time competing, I wanna have as much fun as possible. And things in general are goood. But I just feel like a nuisance at times.. As if I do none good. Like I don't do enough despite the thanks and signs of appreciation delivered unto me. I feel as if I hold people back from what they want to achieve. That I'm one of the agitating obstacles that are in their way to their goals. I'm fed up with the feeling that I'm no good to anyone. Although the feeling isn't so strong.. It's quite bothersome. I feel that all I do is bother the girlfriend now. I know it's early to trip, but I don't care. I'm gonna say what I wanna say. I'm starting to realize how busy she is. Socially, family, academically occupied. Minus myself. What I'm saying is I just feel like I don't matter atm. Like, I'm whatever. You know ? Again, this feeling is in the least form of abundance and doesn't interfere with my natural joy. But that doesn't mean it's not gonna bother you ? I feel that all I do for my family is just be a nuisance. And that's the only thing they see me as.. A no good, disrespectful nuisance. I'm tired of this repetitive cycle of emotions. I want change ! I wish for a dramatic self-change to better myself and those around me. I'm sick of the fact that I don't bring as much happiness to the world as I wish to do. Bored of just wishing and dreaming this change will come soon.


Done.


Bye.



Au revoir.


Ma'alam.


So long !


You're gonna get it. If you truly know me, you should know I keep all of my promises and I say what I mean. Things I say shouldn't be taken as a simple joke. Nonetheless, if I make it evident that I'm inferring to content in a humorous manner. I'll make it obvious when I'm just messing around or joking. There's many words floating in my ocean of a mind right now.. Words that I can only wish to say. Words that I'm so far from ever having the right to speak. To be able to say.. "I accomplished something major" or "I made everybody happy today". Goodbye to this ignorant contemplation of lazily goal-chasing. I've gotta push that envelope.. I've gotta do better. Life's to short for regret. I can't stop now. This is it, settling the score with this indefinite internal conflict that never ever seems to end. A promise is what I propose. To do better and try my best at all. I WILL succeed. I'm not gonna bite the dust this time.. It's time to hit the gong harder. Kill procrastination. To get out there more and show people up. To prove I'm not what you think I am. That I'm more than what I seem.. I've got nothing to prove to you. Not her, not him. Not anybody. I'm doing this for myself. To prove to myself that I can say those words that I wish I could say. To feel that satisfactory goodness that I made people happy. To be looked at different because of what I have accomplished within myself. Taste the glory. Fight the pain. It's now, as I finish this gripe. A matter of time, if you will. Before I shower in accomplishment. These emotions have yet to climax. My plate is yet to be filled. My priorities are yet to be straightened out. Getting my act together and making a difference. It's what I'm gonna do.




Nuff' said. Let's do this..

Gooood day sir.

Ahhh, I've been wanting to make one of these. It seems that I need a place to just.. TYPE. You know what I'm saying ? Sudden impulses of abusive expression. Quite the natural trait of the adolescent society. So I'm going to start off my first entry by saying things about myself.. *Ahem.
-Oliver-Jay Ortega Espina
-15 Years old
-Filipino, and a bit Japanese as well.
-Loves sushi.
-Has a burning passion for skating the board.
-Is an Official Distinguished member of the International Society of Poetry.
-Dislikes math.
-Has a thing for green.
-Has too much time on his hands.
-Has the most beautiful girlfriend. ;)
-Pokemon is the shit.
-Rap is whack.
-Hip-Hop all day.
-Likes any kind of music really tho.
-Favorite song is "Imaginary Folklore" By Nujabes
-Has a fairly large family.
-4 sisters, oldest, and only guy.
-I detest that.
-Wishes he had Kool-Aid right now.
-Has better friends than you do.
-Has about 9 bestfriends.
-Wants to go to Japan.
-Lets go skate.
-Hmmm.. I'm running out of things to list.. Even tho I KNOW there's a lot more I wanna list. Haha!
-PANTS!
-Hmmm.. Yeah, blurting out randomness is gold.
-Music feeds my soul.
-Skateboarding keeps me sane.
-Has had a dark past..
-Most people do not know.
-Wishes Pokemon was real.
-Likes to help people with their problems.
-Especially helping females with their boy problems for some reason..
-Idk, just seeems funny how naive the females are about us.
-Yeah, it's hot.
-The color orange makes me thirsty.. Reallly thirsty.
-Today is my bestfriend Melllanies birthday ! :D
-I hope she's happy.
-I wish I had a million wishes.
-But I don't at the same time.
-Lives life regretless.
-Doesn't believe you're reading this whole thing.
-Wonders what you're thinking..
-Yeah, I think I'mma leave it at that.
-Get to know me in person !