Wouldn't it be nice ? ,

So here I am again. Type, type, type. Feeling this pounding emotion which drives these words that I wish to input somewhere in order to 'get it out of here' in my train wreck of a mind.


Here it goes once more.


Not too long ago, I felt so great. The other week, it was all fine and dandy. Everything was prosperous. But now, with the death of my Grandfather upon us and the diagnosis of my Grandmother with pancreatic cancer brings stress. And it stresses others around me. And when others feel something strong near me, I'm quick to pick it up and have it rubbed off on me. I feel so. . Drifted. As if I'm drifted from all bonds in which I hold with all those who I've shared one with. It's killing me, and it's so damn painful. I haven't skated in two weeks and this shit happens. Idk. . I just wish I can make it through all this bullshit with school and losing people, and losing communication with people especially with my girfriend. I feel like a wreck really. The best way that can be described. As if I have no control over anything.

I need skating

I need better communication skills

I need to get closer with everyone

I need to get away from stress

I need a vacation



Take me away from now. Because I'm in no fucking mood to handle anything.